I did realize something wrong with me, but I just selectively not to think about it, ignored it, because as long as I happy, I enjoyed myself.
I think I can take myself for granted, but now I realize it wasn't like that.
In this society, it doesn't work. This kind of character and personality failed.It works only in front of my dearest parents and closest person. But in the society, I'll be disqualified.
Ever since I realize something that darken my beautiful world in my lifetime, it wouldn't stop continue becoming darker until now, my imaginary wonderful world is almost darken. I like damn disappointed. But this world is really very grey as I'm always afraid to face it.
But anyhow, no matter how strong will that I'm not going to change myself for others and just to be myself, it's all bullshit when you met someone who meant something to you, eventually you will change it !
It wouldn't be easy. But I believe I can !
It's just as simple as you don't want to lose him or her.
No matter how, the things that I should improve I will try my best to do so, as these are all for my own good. That's why that somebody is only my motivation to do so.
I know I will thank him one day.
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