STRESSFUL

Arrghh.. my first time felt so damn stressful.. even before how stress, still okay.. Now, I almost can't breath ='( gonna death
I live in the scaring life recently.. its still fucking days to past reaching that BIG DAYS!!
---would like to spoke out here.. sorry, i know i always complain here =P
but, nobody let me talk to, so just wrote it out my feelings right here...---
Feel like kinda abit scared on SPM, actually not just abit =P
I just took some 'action' to prepare for IT, and too let me feel more secure when I'm going to handle IT! =P So, I took kinda few tuitions this year, including B.M, additional math, physics and chemistry. and, my bro told me to take modern math too, so I took it also..
Since last year.. No! is almost the years, mum's always want me to take tuitions to get more improvement for all my "sucks" result, but, I think I can handle it with my result is still 'acceptable'.. so, didnt bother about that!
This year, I took those subjects that I feel I needed cause I started to scare about the exam , SPM! I'm trying my best and I'm now hard working for it.. I work it day after day, just hope to do my best to get what I want in future! But, YOU seems doesn't supporting me.. I'm just to tell you I want to take one more tuition for account subjects only, what response that you gave me? YOU just told me "its last year already, take good use of your time, this year is last chance you had for your future!" Don't you remember??
So, NOW? whatz wrong? Money problems?? or anyting else problem?? many things I'd paid it myself dy, although that is your money, it's my pocket money too.. digi bill, stationary, books, school&class fund, hair cut, and so on.. what do you expect more? bro dont ever pay the bill since just he paid when his finished his university studied!
YOU dont used damned bad excuse to let me feel so sorry for taking so many tuition and let you tired.. NO MORE AT ALL!!
I'll take my account tuition for sure.. I'll find my own transport too!!!
Dont Agitate me ANYMORE!! It's stress enough ON ME, myself! dont put it on me anymore! I'll be crazy...
I can't breath now T.T Its such a scary feels.. HELP~