I'm Glad To have HIM (5)

Hey Bloggers, what's your opinion on long distance relationships?

For me, I never thought that I would be in a long distance relationship. This is a kind of relationship so much different from the normal one I used to imagine since I was small. Get to know someone far from your hometown is kind of good experience to me. From my point of view, they tend to have different thinking and different behavior.

However, if it is a friendship, it might just as well less chance to get in touch. But, when it comes to a relationship, it would be another story.  

I'm currently having my internship at my hometown, while the beloved partner is working near his hometown. We're forced to be apart 3 months for training. Here comes the difficult part - REALITY.

I used to think that being apart physically doesn't mean anything if the couple's hearts are held together - fairy tale mind.  However, reality is always cruel. What is reality? Reality is, when your life full of stress, pressure, tiredness, and so on, when everything come all at once, are you still willing to held on each other. 

I'm having tough time with this. I admit I'm doing well. But I will do it right in the coming future. This is what we mean - It's time to grow up. "Accept the reality and move on like an adult. "

Glad that I still haven't fail this test. 
Being together with the right one will encourage you to grow up to have a better future instead of making you happy now and suffer in the future.  
Keep charging ! Hold on tight ! Never Give Up ! =)

The Missing Pieces of My Life

     Life, will never ever perfect. It's just like, no one will ever smile perfectly.
     I'm sure that everyone will have the hidden-self. The part of themselves that only they know about it. There's also the hidden part of their Life with those sadness no one will ever understand. Some people who experienced the pain will never wanna others to feel that. Because they know, once there's pain, the scar will always be there.
     I'm tired of thinking and re-calling memories these days.
     I know that I shouldn't be like this. This period, I should've burned up the night fighting for the assignments and the coming examination. But, I didn't. I tried to make myself busy with things to do, but still there's little space for me to think.
     I wanna stop thinking because I don't wanna re-call those memories, I don't want to make myself regret,        I don't wanna think that you're just gone like that.
     For a thousand times that my father told me, it is good for her. I understand, but isn't it too soon for me?! I just can't accept that she leave me like that. She promised that she'll wait me finished studies, only she'll be relieved.
     My life is just like a mirror, me and my family will always be there for sure, and I can change the background wherever I go with them. It might not be the perfect one but used to be a complete one. But now,  it's not only cracked, there are yet missing pieces.

     No matter how, You'll stay Forever in my Heart.

     I Miss You, and I will always Love You !

In this Cruel World

People used to be very kind and nice to you when you're in good conditions.
To make it simple, when you benefits them, they'll always be by your sides until you're not capable to do anything for them.
This world seems to be colorful and wonderful when I was a little kid. But as the days goes by, lots of things I've learnt. By observing things and those people in my life, it seems this world is not as beautiful as I thought before. Or maybe It never beautiful at all. The colors of the world faded, slowly becoming grey and became dark eventually.
I just don't understand, why people can be so selfish. People often take everything for granted, they will never remember who sacrificed for those happy moments.
Being so selfish and realistic tends to become a norm in this cruel world.
What an awful scene.

I'm Glad to have HIM (4)

Since we got back together, we've never been better.

Somehow, I feel he changed. Not becoming worse, but better instead.

From what I know, what was happened in the past six months makes him feel sorry.

He tried to make us new memories, so that I can replace those little things somewhat hurts me last time.

However, my brain tends to figure out something sometimes. 

For an excuses, maybe I was afraid. I don't know whether this happiness will last. 

I don't know when I have to deal with those things again.

Recently, somehow I practice myself to get prepared for everything that will probably happen again.

Even though it became a kind of stress for me.

It is true that this choice is mine, I've make the decision. I will deal with it.

No matter what, I have to trust him since I gave him the chance.

For the past half year, all worries and frustration burdened me every single day.

Now things seems to go more smoothly, worries and frustration reduces.  

Although argument still happens within two of us, but we can deal with it in a better way.

Still, I appreciate everything he had done for me. 

Hope that we'll be Alright for now and in the future.

2nd and the Last.

All of a sudden, it comes back.

The feelings that I could never know how to put into words.

However, 

The coming back is a decision I made.

I give it a 2nd chance, and a chance for myself, 

that might be a last chance, I whispered to my heart.

I don't know whether the decision is right or wrong,

But, I will just follow my heart.

I promised myself to take full responsibility for the decision I made.

Somehow there is always an answer in my heart. I know it !

By the way,

I want to say Thank You.

No matter what or how we will be in the future.

I'm so thank you that you let me know that I never failed.

I'm so thank you that you let me know that I worth it.

I'm so thank you that you let me know that I won't regret for what I trusted.

Thank You ! =)

Anyway, cheer up !
There will be a better tomorrow. Life goes on.

Dreams will come true if you have Faith on it. ^^

"Sometimes"

Sometimes, I just don't feel like talking.
I used to be very talkative and hyperactive when I'm with my friends.
But why?! Recently I don't feel like talking at all.
I turned off Facebook chat. I don't pick up my phone, I left those message at the tone.

Sometimes, I'd like to be alone.
When I'm alone, I don't have to pretend to be anybody else. I can just be myself.
I can release all my emotions. I don't have to hide.
I don't have to fake a smile all the time.

Sometimes, I'd like to be with my friends.
Hanging out with them, having meals with them, chats with them for hours.
Kinda relax when I'm with them.
Provided no one talk about stressful stuff or daily stupid routine.
I still can accept something like sharing their stories even though sometimes kinda sad.
But these are friend's talks.
One of the most enjoyable thing when sticking with friends is the moment you forget about everything and just freak out, smile and laugh.

How are you recently?

 You smiled today?

------- Missu Missu -------

Sasaki =)

The Voice 3/4/2013

Here we Go ! The Voice.

Shout to the extreme ! Enjoy to the fullest !

Singing for 5 hours is just Insane. It's Fun !

This was my first time go karaoke with my closed friends at Kampar.

I pretty enjoy it. Feel so happy and relax.

Thank you girls ^^

Friends =)

It was just so coincident, he was there with his friends at the same time.

The feelings.. I don't know how to put in words,

but I just smiled. =)

Anyway, after the enjoyment.. after you'd fully relaxed..

Here is the time to tensed up !

It's time to prepare for coming exam.

That's our Final exam for the third trimester of Foundation studies.

Gambate nahh.. Everyone ! =)