Mental Punishment

I'm living in a life with full of mental punishment.
I'm fearful ..
I do not know when you're fine and when you're not. I do not know when I'll did something(nothing) that makes you feel unacceptable or unhappy.
I feel we should talk more to each other. At least you might let me know what are you thinking, isn't? You face that to me, make me afraid and fearful.
I do not know what should I do to let me saw your Smile.
I'm suffering your mental punishment crazily. I couldn't take it any more.
You do not do that to Him, but Me! I could understand that maybe you only can face yourself truly together with me. But, you can always say it's really unfair to let 'Us' know such adult's worries. Unfortunately that you mention 'us' means 'ME', do you realise? So, all along the way since I know everybody and everything happened on me, I'm 17 years old very soon, I'm also suffering Mental Punishment created in my life by You!